The physical environment is a manifestation of our mental state.
So I guess all these years I’ve been going at it wrong. Hard as I try, I still own far-too-many possessions that follow an organised chaos, taking up space, time and endless-effort. I now realise it was all because of this one important concept I missed.
Decluttering, really starts in the mind.
You need to purge attachments, re-examine values, and make space for what’s to come.
In the next month or two, I intend to move out of the family house which I’ve lived in for almost 13 years. Many people have come and gone over the years, but I’m now the only one responsible for all the junk and crap we’ve accumulated over the years. Furniture that we inherited from the previous TWO dwellings; abandoned room full of my brother’s EVERYTHING; tools and junk left by my grandparents; and books. SO EFFIN MANY BOOKS. This is on top of my own shit that I’ve managed to hoard since before I started making money.
Tackling this has been a hugely overwhelming, yet somehow exciting experience. Overwhelming, because of the sheer volume of STUFF I need to go through. Exciting, because this great purge of 2015 is opening me up to a whole new life without clutter. (Yes I’m an optimist)
This process of purging has been a journey down some dusty forgotten memory lanes. I found physical reminders that triggered memories of things I used to do, and people I used to know. It forced me to revisit lessons I learnt the hard way. There are mistakes that I choose NOT to think about for a reason. On the flip-side, it also reminded me of how far I’ve come.
You realise how much you’ve changed, when you read through your old diaries and feel like you’re invading someone else’s privacy. The trivial things that teenage-me used to care about. The negativity and insecurities that lurked between the pages. The life goals that have since been achieved, internalised, and long forgotten. And the boys. Oh-so-many boys that have been in and out of my mind/life. Ones that have changed me in fundamental ways; and ones written in code names that I can’t decipher for the life of me.
Then I realised how absurd it is to hold on to these mementos of the past. For me, it’s enough that I got here. The details of how – no longer carry weight. It certainly humbles me to remember my beginnings and my struggles… Yet it is empowering to be able to let it all go (cue Elsa).
So goodbye my past. Thank you for equipping me with all that I need for the great adventures ahead. World, here I come!